Relationship and Marriage.

Who am I?
This body I am not, This voice in my head I am not, these emotions I am not.
The voice is active because of my attachments, It is almost as if a computer. It is fragmented because of many different desires. Desire for certain states.

What is left beyond body, voice and sensations that I am.

The voice is kind of generated by myself. sensations are kind of automatic and affects me severely. Some of the sensations are good feedback that let me know for example that I am hungry.

My nature is love, compassion, mudita, equanility. My primary goal should be to completely established in this reality.

If the relationship creates the obstacle in this journey, you should let go of the relationship.

The mind is ultimate problem solving tool, and heart helps me to interact with the world. It gives me feedback about the world.

Can these meditation practices lead me to the point where I know intutively that I want to be in the relationship.

About Lin or other women I meeting. My focus is meditation and self and I will not do sex, or any major detour. Relationships if they keep me socially healthy and not over stimulate. There is also strong senes of joy in selflessly and genuienly helping other person.