Relationship puzzle. In the relationship and What I want.

When I am in the relationship with Lin. We play a lot and I kiss and hug her, she come and sneak into my chest and cuddle for hours. This play is there.

Then sometime we go outside for lunch, dinner and picnic. Sometime i want to go myself but she tag along. Sometime we have good times while we are walking and talking and making fun of each other, sometime we just walk silently.

Sometimes in the morning she cooks food for me. Sometime I bring her flowers. Sometime she expect me to understand what is in her mind and than become offended. Sometime I expect her to arouse me and she works instead and I feel offended. Once I crossed the boundaries that she got irritated and we had fight, a very short one.

Sometime she tell me her secrets and then tell me I am her confidant. And that I am godsend etc.

There is a dream of me, there is a dream of her, and then there is a dream of together.

There is some garbage in me, there is some garbage in her and than there are some good parts in me and good parts in her.

When it ends it might be more devastating for her than me.