Retreat #01

How do I know I am not the external world?
Because it does not move on my will. and it is external to me.

Why I believe I am body?
Because I experience the sensation of body. Body move on my will.

Although it is constantly changing without any input from me. A lot function happens without my will. It is an object that I see. If I loose the body part my sense of Iness is still completely intact.

To the extent, Body is a living organism with its own process, and I am the experiencer and controller of it.

Body has taste, touch, smell, view, sound, one is raw sensation and second my heart reaction to it.

Am I a combination of thoughts and emotions?
For some reason, I believe it, but these combinations are just coming and going.

I am the knower of thought and I can control it, although it is also a creature that has its nature.

There is this blankness and then thought and emotions arise and pass away.

The mental process. Looking at good side of Lin opens heart, bad side closes the heart.

Some good process are practice of letting go, Asking questions, Being comfortable with more and more unmastered sensations, using words in my favor,