sane.
After spending couple of days here in ananda. near nature, some meditation and good food. I think I am recovering. I also met dharana who is a nice guy and taught me baby kriya technique.
I think at this point I am sane enough to take some control of my life from autopoliate mode it is running on. I can regulate a routine or direction to move.
one of the thing I like to do is to look back on the post of last years and see the flow of my life. there are several books I would like to read. maybe go for hiking while I am here. know your question, know your blocker, know avaliable paths and ofcourse open to serendipity.
write your mind out.