Self realization and the layers to cross.

The first layer is the world, people in it, things that are happening, some things are happening according to my beliefs, somethings are not. My family, friends, partner, job, people to deal with all comes in this category.
They do affect me internally. People and things.

Then the voice inside my head, constantly chatting and telling me I should do this and that, it’s foundation is beliefs. And it will keep changing following it’s trail isn’t leading in the direction of happiness, because it is constantly changing. There is cause and conditions here and it is possible to make it happy.

Then there is emotions. These vectors are powerful. But they are just as impermanent. The voice and emotions has a strong connection. They affect each other. Infect voice is weak in front of emotions and primarily trying to gain and loose that.

Then there are samskara, the old experiences that wasn’t processed well. And they keep coming up with these voice and emotions.

It is very hard to work when they are out of balance. Mind is afraid, worried and energy is moving downward or backward.

These things are not me, it is possible even smart to balance them and see the cause and effect of these. But ultimately you need to know who you are and reach to the point where you are actually unaffected by these.