Sensation.

Form some people who’s attention I want it matterd more, from some people I even dislike it. Because of the association.

Ashish jagtap vs nishant hivarkar.

I also find upward movement from seeing Preksha likes it since I value her attention more.

I like the appraise from Alex and didn’t like it from bikul.

I also try to hide any embarssing post from the past.

Looking myself trying really hard to flash my point of view, Dubai and comments, by heart is contracting to see it.

As I was seeing those picture I practically I want to make myself away. These things I don’t want to associate myself with now.

Strong sense of disassociation from the past where I did something stupid.

The heart get tight in the anticipation and then it goes hallow or backward, or there is a hit and surge of upward movement.

 
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