so it begins !

I am alive, feeling, working and doing everything. but somehow back in my mind is like, I am not all in. feels like I am testing the water or something, not jumping with both feet. waiting for some official signal. and my mind is so happy to take advantage of it.

but this is it. and here is that signal, I don’t want to wait for anything anymore. I want to start living with all in. I am not confused anymore. and I have enough data to really start living, and I am sure I will refactor it along the road. to start I just need bare minimum.

the first thing is I am not willing to be a slave of my mind. and I wanna be able to see things more clearly, not through that dusty stained glass of denial and beliefs. I wanna feel healthy and I wanna attain flow in my work. and of-course taking care of my family. and this is a good starting point.

I am heartily aware of, why and what, and this is the time to learns some tactics about how to implement it.