Social Recalibration.

There is a need of acceptance, to impress other people and I reenumrate many times in mind everyday. It getting feeble though there is a senes of pleasure in explaining things to other. Sense of importance. This is coming from ego. This is why I don’t like when someone is disrespectful to me. This is why reenumrate every instance in so many ways, so how can I make the different impression, better impression.

I have to interact everyday with many people. If I am gentle people take me less seriously. Serve him the last. Send him last. There should be little tension and force.

It seems though as I am hesitating while asking for anything I need, for example from dada. And forcing someone seems a bit more relationship tension creating kind of thing.

I feel like to learn more diplomacy and power games and know what to do in which situations. And what to expect. Then there is politics and negotiation. And assertiveness.

You have to master the whole spectrum of social interaction.

Then there is family and their ever changing and flactuating behaviours.

Then there is romantic relationship and how to live in one properly.

What is the difference between living in solitude and what social interaction affect in a positive tone.

There is a power in being able to laugh at oneself. Taking oneself lightly.

Than there is this understanding what I need in terms of friends, and partner.

then there is question of appearance. Grooming and all that.

When there is a conlifct it feels bad. Me wants to get out and Lin wants to go more deeply.