spiritiual sunday #25

twisted week, in the middle of the week I was like “so be it”. I stopped working out, waking up as late as I can, watching youtube till late night facebooking and what not. counting days left in the week. the old kind of lifestyle. somehow I convinced myself “I wanna see how bad it is or something”. I tasted confusion, inferiority, hatred, judging all the time, all kind of disgusting lump. most of the time I was just living in my head. the interesting thing though were introspection mindfulness keeps kicking in.

spirituality - amusingly no matter what I can’t not do the meditation. this has become a very strong habit. I continued mediation as usual. I started reading four foundation of meditation book. as I went through a burst of instantaneous pleasure approach. i can clearly experienced a lot of disturbed emotions. and afflictions. maybe not that intense but they are there.

work - I just didn’t care about it. although it is going in a good direction. i was also feeling that weird hatred thing against almost everyone. I also felt this urged of building classpodium thing technically.

health - I did couple of session of workouts. I didn’t cared much about it.

family - I would say it was okies if not bad. I was getting very easily irritated and angry.