Spiritual pursuit and vipassana.

There is a series of thoughts, I slowly comes into it, and there are just I thoughts as well, there are sensation that are highly connected to I and they changes and everything changes. There is an awareness that observes it.

There is an intellectual level where these actions are shallow and information rules everything there are false information as well.

Any kind of suffering happens on this doer level. There are strange habits of testing each information to resolve on to this level. confusion, conflict, decision and all my problem exist on this level.

There is a strong visibility but partial understanding of this level. Each vipassana helps to strengthen it. This much can be resolved in some time.

The result would be based on clear seeing what I need to do and what I don’t need to do, what are the possiblities. These things can be seen and understood.

There is this thing that is mention in vipassana the libration from the consciouness and seeing nibanna, then the explantation of how budha found it and how this is the only technique, 4 ashankh and kalpa. this tested against logic seems so futile. It is very clear that the practice is helpful but practicing to reach this state of nirvana is not what I am looking for and can be disastourasly waste of life. So this goal in the sense needs to be clear where I draw the line of searching and then where I will say thats it still the practice continues but to establish yourself but you no longer searching for something substantial there.

Increase the depth of awareness and master the master the knowledge.