Spiritual Recalibration - In the middle of temptation.

It is like a cut open something overgrown and it is overwhalemingly taking over on me. I felt a bit agitated in terms of focus, inspiration seems to be dwindling if not missing altogether. There is strong sensual urge. And doubt.

And then I am so much pulled by attachement, I am thinking about how would I convience my family about getting married to Lin. The renumration of it, god the renumration of it. And then the next moment there are opposite thoughts.

Another series of thoughts about lets go to rishkiesh.

I am not feeling letahrgic through and I am also feeling energy. So I can actually face it.