Spiritual recalibration - self-proving and justification.

When an event happens, and I experienced an affliction, generally strong sensation. Now the first thing I am doing that I started to protect myself.

If someone else did something I started to justify that as well.

yesterday some kids sit and I didn’t felt good. So I moved out. Now for around next 1 hours, I justified how that action was appropriate, another thing Once I am done this and that, it will not occur again. There was judgment, out of balance experience together.

It is like someone is blamed and start to prove I am not guilty.

Just at the moment, “There was judgment, out of balance experience together.” I think of something and then I try to rationalize it to come up to the same result. Instead of seeing the experience as it is.

Belief | desire | ( experience ) affliction | trying to convince.

Desire — looking for that | affliction | trying to fix the reality.