spiritual sunday #12
I just looked back at my last spiritual sunday post and there is 16 post in between, totally different mindset. reading it seems like something I did way back indeed a week is not a small time.
this was pretty decent week. certainly a week worth living. as I moved through the week, the major portion was occupied with me dealing a project in hand, in namshi. certainly a new kind of experience, struggled in collaboration, also I was engaged with thinking about fear a bit. and it seems like i hit the home run in first day than clean bold after that. I also felt like I was trying hard. the effortless grace of move was missing. I felt I was drifting a bit spiritually. and at the end of the week edges were getting blurred. In last 2 days. I slept at 11-12, and woke up at 7-8. i started to re-read power of now. a thought of playing too small and wasting my time was bubbling up. why not start a business, start to skip guiding principle meditations. and at the end of week felt a bit lost.
even though I am writing a lot of stuff that needs to improve. it was an amazing week. a courageous attempt to stand right in front of fear. followed morning rituals smoothly, included evening rituals beta :). throughly assessed myself. totally focused on self improvement instead of choosing afflictions. an aspiration of entrepreneurship was there. and a weekend retreat.
spirituality - I did meditation everyday, although I did experience a bit more agitation, started to watch, analyse and stand against fear. one of the deeper spiritual roadblock seems to be fear of judgement.I felt a bit rushed and lost. one thing that was clearly missing and I was not making much of the effort was, mindfulness. as I remedy I started weekend retreat, but certainly goal for this week. is relax. read a book, listen some talks, reemphasis what the point of it, you don’t have to annihilate your afflictions. just reiterate understanding of the purpose. please don’t miss guiding principle meditation. also make sure 2 months bootcamp is on it’s way.
people who rush don’t get far.
health - amazingly done 6days ( 3days body circuit and 3 days cardio). good food, and feeling quite healthy, for this week I would like to do 3days circuit, 1 yoga, 2 cardio. although I feel like I am not sleeping at time. so please make sure at 9:50 no matter what everything shut down. I would like to try oil pulling this week.
work - I am getting my ass kicked here. specially in people skills, ya. see the thing is I am not able to get optimum condition to work. there was days in the week, where I want to work but couldn’t because my work was dependent on something. I feel neutral in work. it seems like I am learning to be mediocre from it. I was also feeling a bit purposeless. asserted myself less and being defensive more. although I learn some new stuff like elastic search, SOA, I also felt I can technically build all these stuffs, what I would like to do this week is to reiterate purpose part of it. make sure i know why I do this.
family - haven’t talked to brother in week, also please deliberately make sure family is comfortable.