Spiritual Sunday #17

And this is the week where all hell loose, started week with setting up website for cx. Walked on jbr with Hrishi and anmol. A bit disconnected. Work was fine. Clearity was missing. Not very high load And I was not so much engaged in work. I was definitely not utilizing available free slot effwctively. I was also very much thinking about the conference whole week.

And as I proceed to weekend I started to loose control. With such a subtle beauty mind lure me in. Ohh what’d wrong with it. I kind of forget my stand and Started to react.

And than came the beast. I went for that hackathon. Not really excited about cx. And first thing I started my laptop and its broke. In a hackathon without laptop. I started to walk around and talk to people.
The subject they were discussing felt completely disconnected to me. Eg Politics.

People were walking around looking for connection I guess. But as crowd get bigger and bigger. I felt more and more just get out of here. I just wanted to get out of there.

On the other I was finding myself good in conversation. But initiating a conversation very poor. A skill quiet under developed. I was sitting quite in what they call networking session. It felt bad. Oh and I am sure in the long run I would appreciate this experience a lot.

After a while I had to leave. It was kind of hybrid where neither I was interested. Nor I was skilled and yet I wanted to do it. But as I proceed further I felt unclear, lost. Another reality creeps into the mind. Have I build another conflicting false image in my mind. Just like some of my older friends.

spirituality - I think this was quite challenging week where in terms of spirituality, I did meditation as a do normally. But I missed guiding principle meditations pretty much whole week.
I was feeling pretty lost. Not really sure about why of anything. I was also getting interested in more budhsit teaching like eight fold path. For this week I would say drop down everything and get back to clarity first. Don’t skip gp meditation.

health - this was very 6days worked out on tai chi. Love this slow methodic workout t. Also I did some knee pop exercise and it is working. And I also eat good food. This week could be a bit challenging as I don’t have my laptop so provably a better idea would be to do yoga from you tube. It is very much getting ingrained in habit

work i am also feeling a bit lost here as well. I need to learn to utilize free time more effeceintly. Clarity and why also missing. I am choosing random activity along with it. Not very wise. May be even facturing my attention span.

Family very nice. I was finally able to resolve financials of house.