spiritual sunday #2

interesting week, started with a good news from namshi, spent couple of days in paperwork they needed from me. I pretty much did the first cycle of allan wallace samtha retreat. it introduced me to 2 really great meditation technique, taking mind as an object and equanimity. watched a lot of dhamma talk again. did 2 t25 session. didn’t really focused on work much beside completing web security concepts. struggled with service apartment, started to read flow. and ended week with jaaga guys.

interesting experiences

on the weekend I was hanging out with jaaga guys. really nice peoples. they litup bonfire, and we were sitting in circle and talking. the topics of conversation was very light, what you are upto, what we are doing here kind of thing. I was participating authentically and was neither very excited nor very bore. and then few guys got moderately high. and then conversation took another route. it looks like now only they were having good time. a lot of laugh and random conversation. I was not particularly enjoying it, nor I was judging anyone. yet a part of me wanted to be in majority. which was making me a bit conscious about me not participating. it feels like this is not my audience specially when people talk after getting high. i would rather prefer to read a book in solitude. but sometime I feel like I want to talk to people to just release some energy. a perfect example of free trait agreement.

conflict

there is a conflict in my mind about what I should do this week. should I go on living in bangalore or plan to go to goa with some old friends. the preposition is if I would go to goa with friends I would have good time. and I am talking about the craft here and expression seems like very contradictory. I would rather love to stay here and work on myself.

wether I should learn driving or not? my heart is not into this. but I think functionally it might help. so lets pass it for this week. I am really not in the mood. YAGNI :D

spirituality #

I would love to do 3 gatka of samtha with mind as an object and 1 gatka of guided meditation on the top affliction of the day. it’s important to not take refuge in watching videos

health #

feeling a bit gross, please put this in number 1 priority, bootcamp t25 week with cautiously eating. just for this week.

work #

flow and metaAPI.

family #

just continue what you are doing right now.