spiritual sunday #20

I started this week with determination of walking the eight fold path. or at-least make an effort to do so. beside work even though I followed morning ritual I were waking up late. I was looking at things like facebook more often. the effort I was putting to follow path was not enough. somehow understanding of it start to fade. I start to take refuge in the idea of doing it. rather than actually doing it. on the subtle level I could see, in my conversations I was trying to impress others. on the other side of it I looked on my behavior more closely and collected more data. the place where I lack the most is choosing right thing over pleasurable feeling.

spirituality - meditation as usual, I did one thing which seems different than what I usually do. I stopped running. I could have very well spend this week to learn technical stuff, or other things which could have engage the mind. but I stand still and observe how am I doing. or atleast tried to do so. I were more aware of my intentions and actions. even though I couldn’t steer them in right direction more often. occasionally I watched my speech. and tried to be more mindful. i think I need a constant stream of skillful understanding for a while. until I make some progress here.

work - I am not very engaged in work, I think I took more refuge in spirituality. I clear issue that I am facing is lethargy and it’s appeal to distraction. it’s like I have to listen songs or something. I need a better effort to overcome it. on the other side, I were feeling mild inspiration to learn more technology.

health - 4 days t25, 1 day qlong. man I am struggling to get my breakfast :). i didn’t eat unhealthy food. but I were surely drifting in all most all the aspects of life.I think for this week also I should do some more cardio exercises and than I can move back to tai change.

family - I think it’s quite normal and good.