spiritual sunday #22
amazing week, I was very well disciplined, I woke up every day at 6. worked out. it felt like the real deal is practice, the understanding (reading/..) part is basically there to make sure the course of the path is right. so I don’t drift in the direction of attachment and aversion. one great habit I start to integrate is “assan hai, khel hai”, naturally I found strong pull to repeat these sentences at night before sleeping. and when I wake up in the morning. infect sometime when I go for toilette in midnight I was saying these words in half sleep. another thing I start doing was in the morning instead of doing anything I just sit for ½ hour and observe what is happening around me.
spirituality - respectable effort. meditating everyday in morning 30min. in night around 1 hour (vipassana). every night I read some beautiful book like tao te ching, dancing with life, and gita ( more pulled towards original text). one expectation I can see, “i would be so happy if I can be free from my fear. and than there was pull and push for companion” ( kind of attachment for happiness ). on the speech level I need to be a bit careful about unskillful speech. on the vipassana more often than not I found myself a bit lost about what exactly to do. none the less this was a beautiful week, and I would like to live the same way for this week, less knowledge, less writing, more practice, more observation.
health - respectable effort. healthy eating. worked out 6 days ( tai chang )
feeling quite healthy. there is nothing to change, continue as it is.
work - I enjoyed working, completed the project. I like the whole package. more often I was working to be more present. but there is something not right. one thing I find myself struggling with was learning in compony. It doesn’t feel right to watch some training video, and I was in and out whole week in that. sometime it also feels it is useless to learn all these things. and comparison with other figurative people like elon musk, see what they are doing. and working here is also need to keep your self updated atleast enough. so for this week why don’t I try to do an hour of learning before getting to compony and fully present with whatever you are doing. if there is nothing to be done. enhance what is already done. I am not going anywhere soon. so I might as well enjoy it fully. the only thing I don’t want myself doing is just plain clicking here and there or searching for books or retreats or whatever.
family - very good.