spiritual sunday #24

I crawled through this week, I was a bit sick for the first half of the week, and than for the rest of the week I was kind of lost and at unease. the office mega-olympic thing happened. and It was an ok experience. as I can expect myself I was more into defensive mode. not restrained, not practiced mindfulness in particular, even spiritual aspect of life felt like bs. I was unhappy with my life.

spirituality - even though I was doing meditations but I was getting up before bell rings. I was feeling a bit hopeless. I listened to talks and whatnot but these things fade away really fast. I started to write about the spiritual wounds i have.

work - it was not bad, but my heart was not into the work. actually my heart was not anywhere it was captured by obscurations. in the work most of the time I was engaged. not in the flow didn’t even cared about it. unskillfully using the free time.

health - I think I did 2 days workout, it’s ok as my body was recovering from the sickness. eating was moderate.

family - it is ok, my responses are afflicted.