spiritual sunday #27

totally distracted, I am not enjoying my work. there isn’t much work to do. and in the free time I am listing to buddhist talks ( even though I know all the thing ) until my ears start to hurt. how else I can pass my time. finally long awaited 2 weeks vacation and vipassana retreat is here. I am leaving to india tonight.

spirituality - doing minimum viable meditations, I am sure I have been side tracked. a doubt was there regarding what if I got this thing wrong. identifying with all the wrong thing. very spirit to live the life was missing.
what’s with this conditioning of me. where I am choosing, just choosing the wrong things. I don’t have to identify with ( what i am currently feeling ) but I choose to do. it gets quite hard when things are confusing and purpose is fading.

work - the most confusing area is this. neither I am doing good to myself nor to company.

health - 2 days of t25

family : good