spiritual sunday #50-51

crux of these weeks were tushita retreat. in those 10 days I believe I was able to step up a bit in all the directions. the major insight was to see moving up and down in the thresold of the ego realm. and the point where I was compassionately disgust of the amaturish ways of ego. these 10 days passed really fast.

spiritual sanity - I think there was big boost in this area. I somewhat feel like I am in quite healthy state or fairly sane at this point. I also like the idea of analytical meditation. I also felt the mantra sort of meditation, a little bit of introduction to tantra. read some question answer in some books. it was great two week in this domain.

social - I ( was able to ) watch more closesly what was happening around me. the place from where these question were being asked by other and me. in the group discussion I was able to see sometime the subtext. i was watching more closesly the reaction of people with respect to what I have said. for example salman’s reaction or alex response when I asked a depth question, ban. I see people’s need of unnecessery gebrish. I was experssing myself fully. I see small games people playing with sharing their pasts problem. I see the hypocratic feedback (which sound really good ) coming out of the necter of ego. I see how people like to believe what sounds good. I read the game people play. I attended this after party, saw the effect of alcohol and leave earlier. I talk to evelien. this was again amazing weeks in this domain.

health - I walked and strecthed. eating appropriate amount in correct way more often than not. I felt a bit weather change cold. but again there were somewhat amazing week in terms of health as well.