spiritual sunday #54-55

i don’t know how I either lost or forget to write spiritual sunday 54 post. I started to sketch out these books. with somewhat half baked metainsight idea that I will create these animated review like fight mediocrity. it also therotically help me to cross the thresold of social understanding. yet nothing really changed I only get the idea how things are that way and how can i praticpate, this sort of open up a space which was occpupied by this riddle. an idea of project step up. I watched some interview of people like chris, hony, rayan, neil, you know kind of get carried away if you dont know what you are doing. last couple of days were spent on truind trek, I was kind of feeling lonely. read four agreement. there is clear disbalance in understanding and practicing. I think this is the time should thinking of project house january goal.

spiritual sanity - i was in overall pretty good state. I meditated every day but in the last week, I stopped doing analytical meditation. this might be the time it would have been most useful. i was unsure and confused for what to do now and slipping into dispair. but I was totally equipped to find all these answer. and the alternative I choosed just think about it is very ineffiecient. or it was more of the ending of one phase and sort of begienning of another. and I am looking for what is another. also in analytical meditation you need to know what are you meditating upon. and when you are in this state it’s just hard.

social - as i was drawing naturals, how to win friends and influence people, the game people play, i start to get this sense that theroctically i know enough, i know what people are doing and why, but this didn’t just turn into the reality. i still have same anxiety, urges and even discomfort. I need to implement these theories into the real world.

health - I am in a good health, and I am eating right amount. but somewhere I dropped the idea of eating right quantity and type.