Spritual recalibration - beliefs.

These things I have consider truth. I need cafes to work, I should be comfatably talk to the person next to me.

When belief matches with the action I feel at ease, even proud. And if it doesn’t i try to refix it in the mind. When I am acting according to my beliefs even the situation is opposite I consider it more productive. Like sitting in noisy cafe is somehow more productive than sitting in a quiet homely place.

These beliefs are very changable. Before I used to think being good programmer is everything and now, being a good communicator and orchestrator is much more important. He is trying to show-off, he is looking for acceptance.

Without knowledge and experince beliefs are just assumptions. Although it does feel like a very strong reality. Knowledge which is either other peoples experince or assumption, helps to make senes out of it, set the right understanding. Experince is how you internalize it, going out with Kavita. Being intimate with LIN. That experince either crystallise the knowledge or refute it.

There is a very strong tendency to protect these beliefs, especially this belief of I am always right or I know what I am doing. “I know, this is how we get out vitamin b-12” This leads to complete reframing of situation to support the belief. There is screaming, seducing, withdrawing to protect these beliefs.