spritual sunday #13

oh this was the challenging week (may be what I used to know as low period), mind was too powerful. powerful enough that it actually lured me. I felt like mind was stretched like a rubber band and allowing it to regain it shape was quite relaxing, also I was stumbling with morning ritual. even though I did meditation and exercise everyday. it was way less than heart-full effort. I had to push it in some instances just to make sure I do something today. initial novelty was wearing down. yet importance of it remains the same.

the relaxing thing doesn’t work. infect the empty stretch of time was owned by afflictions. the major thing that I felt was missing, is primary goal, all kind of thought like doing an MBA were proposed by mind.

I also felt I am done with bootcamp thing it’s actually 4th week. the thing I was expecting to came out has already been come out. clear guiding principles to reflect upon, a morning ritual, evening ritual and a spritual practice. the only thing is these things are not habitualise yet, but it doesn’t require any active attempt from me.

the question is what do I do now? where do I focus.

spirituality - this was fumbling week no doubt, I was struggling between letting it pass vs suppressing it. mind was very strong this week. learn to watch when you are loosing control. you always have a choice. I also started to practice mindfulness. on the mediation side even though mind was quite rebelling, I did meditate everyday. although I was missing reflection on guiding principles frequently. I think as the bootcamp phase is getting over for this week I would like to do 2 mediation session of 30min each, in the morning samatha and evening reflection on guiding principles. and try to practice mindfulness gracefully.

health - even though I exercised 6 days, quality of exercise was quite poor ( atleast in last 3 days ). I barely made it. I also felt board and uninterested with routines. I try to spice it up in between. but not very successful, for this week I would like to go freestyle with fallback to yoga.
I also felt mild sleep deprivation, I should be a bit more strict on when to sleep. on the food side I am eating macdonald breakfast everyday for last 1 month. which is something I should look into.

work - this was a good work week, I enjoyed strong work ethics, I was more focused and in flow and I was getting loose in env. as well. still facing challenges on collaboration. I felt like I would like to go to work.

family - some procrastinations and normal flow of talking.