state.

state of mind is clear prerquisite for learning. and this is something I am struggling these days with. reading a book seems to be more damaging than helping if done in a agitated state of mind. the hardest thing seems to be not doing anything watch it and let go. come back to normal state. infect reading a book becomes a refuge. an excuse. a progress trap. a way to release some cemical in mind.

but what should I do? I can’t wait for a week before I am in calm state again. I think one thing is dominanting state if it is agigatetd than definately even a week rest make sense. but if the dominating state is calm and healthy than probably a walk and good session of meditation or may be a nice chat is enough.

the thing is I am in agitated dominant state currently and I didn’t own my time completely. but as I am moving from job to freedom again. first clear task would be to cross the thresold of dominating state of mind from agitated to calm. and at this state everything I am doing must be taking me in that direction. isn’t it makes a lot of sense to read about knowledge as compare to inspirational litrature. choose becoming a vegiterian as compare to snowball. don’t worry about anything else.