The bump.

Uncentered.

Last few days I was off with my health. And I understand I am recovering. And I am on some medication which also contribute in physiology and psychology.

I am completely off with my routine. No meditaion, yoga, no clear goals. Kind of unanchored there. Completely unanchored in the chaos of new place.

The energy of the place has also some effect on me. It is somewhat negative and depressing. And there is also not the harmony of family. The connection is not perticularly adding but also drawing and because I am with the family I am loosing some degree of control and independence.

And then there is unclarity of what should I do in terms of vipassna.

There is weakness, unachrodness, confusion and soical challanges. And they are all impermanent. Matter of days and situation will be completely appoiste.

The most stupid thing is to contemplate on the alternative and major decision of life. And the smartest thing is to gain strength, foucs on how can you quickly recover and bounce back. And however slow keep moving in the right direction. That’s all there is.

There is one remarkable quality you are showing. You are doing your best. And that is one hell of a remarkable quality.

There will be just opposite time.