The companion relationship.

Yesterday I went out with J. We talked around 3 hours and had a yoga session together. It was kind of a relief to keep reminding myself I don’t need to impress her. Infect the foundation of comapnion relation is to be as real as possible.

She was very willing. She started the conversation and it floated around yoga retreat. And than I took lead and move it into the direction of authentic depth. Soon she was feeling safe enough to share her struggles and reasons in kind of a open way.

Than we move from SO to tee shop. And there was play and laughs on each other.

We spent more than an hour talking in tea shop I was sharing things like learning to wash the clothes. To slums. And she was travelling with friends to introvertism. It was easy. I was consciously bringing it deeper. Lovingly forcing her to share more. She was asking me all kind of questions too.

Lot of conversation were around Spritual path, yoga, travel, introvertism and life. Understanding and experiences. And little venting out on extrovertism.

Than we moved to yoga studio. There was a little insicident happened which kind of a put her in the negative state. And I find myself taking responsility for it. That put me in offset. Which kind of made me more self aware, I didn’t notice that she put on a little make up after yoga. Although end could have been a bit more refine.

It was fairly comfortable and good experiences. Even though two complete stranger it was strikingly easy and non-frightening. It was amazing moment to realise the fear and release by aknowledging its imparmanent nature.

There was laugh, there was connection and depth, there was a bit of play. There was saftey and comfort. And I learnt and calibrated a lot. These were the things I was expecting. But was It worth, how exactly it made her and mine life better? Where to take it from here?

This was a seed, watering the seed is not the fruit of the seed. There was comfort but deep connection and true authenticity takes time. Why to build such relationship. The comfort of having people around you who understand you and have a deep enough connection to care about you just might be the best thing available in the world. It would also be cool to have a companion on different paths. Alone, it does feel empty.

It has promise of offering something that you don’t have the vision to see at the moment. Watering such relationship might seems like a bit more work than enjoyment. But thats how everything grow. And you can’t expect the sweetness of fruit from a tree which just started growing.

Where to take it from here. Treat her as a good friend in this place, meet her every week. If you planning to go somewhere. Do something invite her. Let this grow. Let her also take lead every now and than. isn’t it good to have a friend in this place. Be real. You don’t need to impress her.

Next week go a little deeper, play little more intimately. Keep it light and non-business. But don’t latch on her. Keep planting more seeds.