The dependence and hinderence to freedom.

Dependence forces obligations. An Obligation to taking care of a person who can not take care of herself, because the other person really believe you are the cause and reason for their happiness and suffering.

That demand on freedom creates resnsentment and chaos.

In the case of mom, I don’t know what she will do if she is left on her own devices. But thats not the end. It creats strong sense of unease. That unease is because I have dream of my own which I will have to compromise because she can not take care of herself. I can not empthaise with her situation and it makes me angery.

Somehow being in dependent relationship pushes you in the ego layer or test you on the ego layer.

The reality is you can’t do anything. She has to pay the price of her karma. Pychologically. The truth is almost everyone you know has to go through it, including you.

You might be able to ease it. And then too much speculations and underestimating the human mind.

And then you know this is not permanent. Who knows you will be free first. Or the very best you are in this game for 50 more years and every year is counting. And counting fast.

Are you trying to predict the future.

What is given is given. Really your job is to make the best out of it.

As you mature spritiually the hinderence of freemdom will go away.