Relationship what am I writing.

Integrating the data. What is my already current understanding and adding more insight and understanding into this. What I need more breadth or depth.

Form autopoilate, to intellegence. Currently the way it is going is driven by mind. And it will go in the direction of sweage if not given the direction. The impulses of egotism and sex will lead the way. A clear boundaries are important.

Then there is gridlock as it involve her as well, of wether I want to go all the way or what exactly is my stand, she had shown her interset. And she asked me indirectly many time what is mine. A clear answer or explanation is required.

There are certain effects of the relationship, or maybe because of some other stuff, I am not as focused or driven. And then it is consuming and pulling thoughts and energy.

Then i do need to solve the puzzle of marraige.