The emotion of kind of fear.

Mind is freaking out atleast mildly. There is aversing sensation of tightness on chest.

The thoughts are related to survival. And voice does not trust me. I let the voice down by listening to itself. I am not keeping my commitments. And keeping my words. Atleast I am not doing my best. My integrity is disturbed.

The things I am doing are not calibrated but easy. And taking on the assignment that will not produce result. I am acting hypocriticaly. It feels like being lost.

There are fussy priorities and lack of faith in the direction. And myself.

The way to get out of this is to mind needs to be peaceful or positive. And heart needs to be calm and excited.

How I do that?

STEP1: take a step back, let the mind scream, shout etc. don’t put more fuel. It is the effect. Go thought it. Strengthen yourself by being unmoved by the storm of mind and emotions. No more reading, watching and doing just sit though it untill it settle down.

STEP2: build the integrity, make plan for tomrrow, keep it slightly tone down and complete it. Fully. And build it. For next one week. Do everything that you said.

STEP3: when mind is settling down. Start self suggestion on four domain and one calibrated step.