the explorer way of life.
you have figured out collecting money is not what people supposed to do. it would be like hiding in a cave for your whole life. you know that running behind fleeting passions and desires is the amaturish way of life. it is rooted in delusion and a trap for confusion and dissatifaction. the egoistic life of proving your self can only bring more suffering because by nature it is bottomless pit. the compassionate attempt to help others is a trap of ego unless you have worked tremendiously to root out all the impurties first. you can play power games for rest of your life to only regret in the end as it will pollute your own pysic.
all these are stratiges to live a good life. but isn’t it make sense to first spent some time to understand life. It would have been better if we knew we have no idea who we are and what we are doing. but somehow we think we understand this game. delusion. this is the major problem.
the nature of this knoweldge is not black or white but subtlelty. more subtler you get more clearer it becomes what you have to do.
once you start to look closely, soon you will find there are certain beleif and conditioning that pollute the intentions. you have to root them out.