The images I brought into.

It starts with default, when I am in the realm of mind identified with it. Either I feel at unease and discomfort. And then thoughts to come out of that unease flows, the most prominent one is relationship. It is there because of some conditioning. That thought is the beginning. Behind that thoughts are beliefs, attachments, and illusion. Behind the belief could be some ignorance or truth.

One of the belief behind it is that without social contact somthing happens inside that create unease.

The promise of relationship is multifacade. intense social proof and being conditioned by media and society, constantly putting this information inside my head. Sexual need and thoughts related to them. The information I was fed was insane. There is natural attraction to other sex. Competitive show off, hurting ego by reminding that you are vergin and it is such a shame. so the ego is envolved. So if ther is instant attraction, aversion that means there is a desire, all these conditioning and beliefs are behind that.

There are other promises sold to me, party for fun, going to goa with friends will be fun. Living outside India is fun. Notice these images seems to realistic but they were just images founded in some belief not the fact. Same way some people brought into the idea of orgy, and sex with family.

Thoughts are coming from these beliefs and images.

Party, living outside India, many of these images were not only not fun but actually painful.