the only thing you can trust.

I know how it feels to take refuge in social intelligence. looking around for peoples opinions on how to live. nobody has any clue. but they will all pretend to be doing good.

I know how it feels to take refuge in spirituality. the path. the ultimate truth or depth. the promise of nirvana. to reach the place of ultimate bliss. although the path to that is not really taking people there. it can not be reached with mindless following and egoistical understanding. or would you reach there by watching sensation and moving your energies in chakras. and what is this place where these people taking others. the container for fantasyland. nobody is arhat but they claim none the less there are other.

so that left me again in the jungle alone and on my own. the only thing you can trust is your intelligence. your meditation of reality. you are capable of logical thinking and remembering and that’s all. you are living in a certain manifestation of reality. understand that first. know that. and trust only that. don’t choose easy path. don’t believe stories because it sounds good.

this is the thing I am not really looking for just social intelligence. there is more to it. I am in the middle of nowhere with no solid map. and having that map is the most crucial thing. and you have to make one for yourself. not look around to find one.

read, meditate, experience, explore, know things first hand. be your own guru.