The place I want to reach.

This is crazy, I can’t seems to be able to still and keep running to avoid reality as much as possible, is madness. these sort of burst of fleeting pleasures without satisfaction is like a intoxicant. and I am running around in circle unsatisfied, confused, hopelessly hoping may be this will finally satisfy me ( at-least a little ). maybe after this when I will do that, I will live happily ever after.

running around without really knowing the game can not take anyone anywhere. the very nature of default is ignorance. to just run, run and run. with different level of illusions, few rooted in virtues, others in darkness. ultimately all in ignorance.

Imagine living with clear experiential understanding, rooted firmly in reality. Imagine being completely free, free from the grip of mental weeds like fear, greed, hatred, illusions. finally being satisfied without looking for more. finally stop running and be in peace with whatever you have.

I really believe this is possible, every spiritual text is pointing to the same direction. the possibility to see it for yourself, how things are. how everything works. who you are. and solution is simple. quite the mind, and observe. that’s it. as challenging as it can be, it is doable. people had done it before. the currency is sacrifice here. sacrifice of the desires.