The road ahead.

The tantrum of mind is becoming clear and febel. I can clearly understand cause and effect of many process in mind. I can see the disturbance mind creates and how old impressions are affecting my current actions.

How duality affects it all. how when a shortcoming surface up I try to protect myself instead of growing. How powerful the hold of mind is.

How simple the system is, just a voice and emotions, How I lose the center when I like or dislike anything.

How the whole process of judgment happens. How being inactive creates the strong turmoil.

Slowly but consistently I am becoming more and more aware of the mind. How even when I know something is right, the action is based on the past experience,

I don’t have a clear answer as what I should to tackle the mind. One thing that is coming into the mind is substituting the actions based on past impressions with principles based on truth.

There is a difference between ideas and practices. So the challenge is currenlty my actions are based on past impressions and they are creating the downward cycle, if I take actions based on the principles based on truth, I can resolve this challange.

There is a second challege that is the ego based actions, they are another source of pain, and I am very habitual of that, actions based on selfless love is not something that is natural to me, but I can still do that while feeling not very comfortable,

Then there is the path of being established in awareness, and exploration of awareness and identification with that. the nature of it. and all.

Then the question of who am I? according to my own experience.

So I will continue working on this direction, On this level, and get the clarity about it.

In terms of external world I do need to survive. and live a comfortable life. and then there is an aspect of the relationship with the people that needs become clear. The question of efficiency, problem solving, growth, and skill are there.

What is the most deepest goal to pursue and how to do that.