the social enigma.

isn’t it when you don’t understand there are so many branches but when it start to make sense there are few.

there is few things I would like to learn when it comes to social intellegence. it will make my life easy, fun and productive.

social valve - man or women. you should be able to go through the valve. the one end is ego and other is buddha. you don’t have to be interested everyone for example ofcouse talk with dhyana was way more interersting than talk with ghai for example. but you should be able to ton yourself down on the same ego level as the person in front of you. didn’t mean you will start lying. but it’s useless and counter productive to talk about libration and what not. you have to learn to go from superficial to in depth. the best way to do it is stop and see what games and past time are being played on different level. some time it will happen that person infont will ask you to offer the game. and you need to have some superfical games ready. beacuse it does build comfort and familiarity.

it should not be complicated as you yourself has been to different ego state.s. understand goal of my life is not to talk to other people. but you should be clueless in the encouter of another human being.

the sangha - I have certain value system and it is kind of hard to find people like me. now imagine if it is hard for me, someone who had the luxury to not do a job for a year and all the other kind of causes. trust me these people with whom I can enjoy my ego state and grow would be quite gaurded by certain persona. you need to find these people and cherish their company with mutual benefit. in the absense of it I am force to hang out with people of very low ego states. in area in life where I don’t really choose I get the leftover bs and you have to lead here.

the experssion - there is a unsetteling feeling of anixety in uncertanity but as you start to kow more about the field and having concerete polarized goal. this start to fade but still there is another anixety of people. or experssing in front group. I think it does come from ego state and as you grow spiritually it might fade. and another aspect of it is may be becasue of some past experiences my intiuations here is generally run away. If I can show myself there is nothing to fear about, I think it can dramatically change it.

the groups - one of the least proforming area for me is this one. mainly I didn’t know the code of it, or why exactly peoples are doing it. and I was stuck with this idea of static self. and the superficiality is usually at it’s best here. I was fucked on almost every front.

the relationship - another area where I suck the most is this. because I didn’t really understood the protocol, idea of static ego state and anxiety.

boundaries and self esteem - I want this area of my life good and solid but not at the cost of myself. there has to be clear bounderies moving beyond that you just walk away. you don’t want to fit in at the cost of your self esteem.

at this very moment you can start a new social life. you don’t really have to fix anything from the past just start fresh. observe every trascation. meditate on it