The State I Am In At The Moment.

At the moment I am just flowing with the water. Doing the task. Involved but not fully engaged. The work is taking most of the time, I can certainly do much better job.

What is missing is the clarity and in the absence of It I am caring about other peoples judgments. and pitch of my voice, impressions etc. I don’t have luxury of so much time now.

I am in the state of unclear fogginess mixed with lack of self trust.

I need to quickly get out of it and into my feet.