abyss.

My heart is getting easily overwhelmed. There is no pull in the direction. The mind is by default renumaritign in the negative directions.

I want to lie down more in the bed. There is no strict guiding mechanism. I am kind of seeing myself in the light of maybe not failurer but not very confident and highly seeing myself. This is the underlying pervading sense.

Nonetheless I am keep moving in the direction. Maybe it is not very high velocity but the speed is there.

There is also a good sign that it is when usually breakthrough happens. When you stay and go through a bit of the pain. It does bring the clarity on different level.