Trigger.

What triggered it, You can easily get into the state of mind, where you think everything is under control, you still have all these things that triggers all these shortcomings.

Last year I was year confident in general. especially when I was doing videos and looking for a girlfriend. Then first I was hit by the video thing is not working, then house crisis, coming back to Lin, dead-end zone, survival instinct, coming to mountblue…

Few shortcoming is being triggered at the moment, one was I am in the foreign env. so there is going to be some conflicts though. so the best way to see what is triggering it is to see what thoughts are making your uncomfortable and you can work your way through.