understanding or practice
understanding, reading, watching is fundamentally a prop for practicing. once we learn to ride the bi-cycle. we don’t need props any more. putting all the time to make a better and better prop, but not practicing to ride the bicycle ( ofcourse out of fear of falling down ) is a trap of delusion. it is useless even if prop is made out of gold. than again riding a bike without prop is inviting unnecessary trouble.
there is a balance in between, there is this built in illusionary mechanism in us which try to connivence that if we have enough understanding we can avoid all the pain. but the growth lies in that pain itself. you avoid the pain, you killed the growth. unsettling is the nature of growth.
don’t obsess with props, use it when you really need it. otherwise just endure the pain and practice.