vipassana-2 experience #2.

the instructions was so simple. the promise was magnificent. and doing it right was delicately spartan. all one has to do is watch the sensation on body as an observer and maintain an equanimous attitude towards them. what it will do !, it will train your subconscious mind and cure its deluded state of being. unlike samatha the important point to note is “it is a cure”. which has a potential to eradicate afflictions from the very roots.

in the first 3 days i was able to arouse good enough clearity and was able to feel sensation of the breath on the entrance of nostril. and around nose and upper lips. although I was expecting from last retreat. that I could zoom the upper lips (which is something i was able to do last time). I was in quite respectable condition, I start to feel a bit bored at the end of the 3rd day of anapana. although very essence of being in samatha while doing it was weak. I was getting pulled away by expectations and performance, the scores.

than I venture into vippassana. the effort I was making was not bad. not bad at all. even though turmoil was strong and immaturely I was getting carried away. but I was getting hang on it.

impermanence -
the one insight that struck to me is when I was able to sustain my attention for around 20-30 mins and I was observing pleasent free flow through out the body and suddenly it changed in to the patches of unpleasant gross sensation, I was acutely aware of the whole process. and that was the first time I experientially see what I believe instructor wanted me to see, the impermanence of sensation. I was also looking at gross sensations a lot in order to observe their devolution. again immaturely I was trading samatha with expectation.

concentrated concentration -
there was this small insight I experienced momentarily, it felt like I slipped into a state which was much more aware and distraction free.

one more thing that i was able to do was to see as an observer the whole process of thoughts while I am focusing on sensation. sometime seeing the agitation in body.

another thing I learnt was the importance of stillness in the process. this something I would do a lot in coming future. and next couple of months I would like to learn to perfect the way of practice.