vippasana #3

tomorrow I have vippasanna retreat in pipeline. and I am having double thoughts about it. it is the time to take insane actions on social front. and I am in a very decent state of mind. daily meditations are good. kind of happy.
this 4 gatka routine is engaging. I somewhat know what I am doing and moving forward. I am excited about reading more books and I am excited about observing and analyzing, so what’s wrong in postponing it. afterall 12 days is not a small time. and the process through which you will go through is not the easy pleasant one.

I decided to do this thing a month back. and the idea was I am going to do 1 of these retreat after each month. and the biggest advantage of it, is the insights and mental health. for example in tushita you could see the ego. this is the big deal. and it is foundational change.

the benefit of retreat is out of question. it is essential. the question is, is it going to produce more benefit in next 12 days as compare to 48 gatka of work. which is basically me trying to move the needle in the world.

I know it is very interesting what you are doing right now. and there is a rhythm in it as well. but you can’t really go wrong with retreat. you will be doing the same thing with more clarity. about the time, I don’t think it is a waste. what you will be able to do is increases your part in the process. and you know what lets trust the nature here. ok. I don’t know clearly what to do after this in terms of place and area. while here in delhi it is comfy and cosy I also have coworking space, good food, cafes and a space to try out social theories. but you know what, will see. lets do it.

haha than I cancel it. I was not really feeling it.