what were the question !!

yesterday I was feeling the breeze of uncertainty, what exactly I am doing, where I am going. am I moving forward or making excuses. where I wanna go. look all the other people how happy they look ( ok that was a bit much ).

but really what am I doing ?
there are two problems and probably I am mixing them.

1. social and relationship - my underdeveloped social and relational skill is quite the area I am very interested in. and to be honest I am making a lot of progress here. from being clueless to having a clear direction. and moving along the way. things are making sense and patterns are emerging. it is the matter of time I will be excellent in this area. now it doesn’t mean I want a lot of social interaction and become a player. it is more of something that being unskilled and clueless is causing a lot of trouble. another thing that draws me is from very early age I am drawn to understanding peoples behavior. and it is one those core skills like health without it, it is hard to sustain even family relationships. an essential skill.

what I am trying to understand the archtype of mr. social and mr. comforter and learning to express myself without social pressure. and more frequently I am able to see the mismatch.

2. what is my job/purpose - how should I conduct my life, what should I do for business, how would I make money to live. the problem is mixing these question with social/relationship area. and subconsciously expecting working on social will answer these question. ofcourse it will not. but than you need to have clear question here as well. now thing is I still want first problem to solve first. but if you a burning question that needs your attention than do a QA. because as soon as you will move here, social question will start to creep in.