What will happen If I continue.

So in a way, I am aking myself to be clear about weather you want to be with lin in long term or let her go and let her find new relationship. and then question moves further If I don’t want to go further with lin, then do I want to go further with anyone.

If I continue with her, lets say without sex, It is nice for her to have some company and it is nice for me to have someone close. This arrangement is good. It will help us to know how does it feel to be in the company of someone.

If I put all the concepts and assumption away. It feels better around her. then commit to her this is what love is.

At this point I will not go for the cheap sexual encounter. and most probably I don’t want to go through the loop again.

Let nature play its part. Instead of me making all the choices. It is possible that you can live with her without the entanglement of marriage like a deep friend. helping and being there for each other. that is the relationship. natural without all these concepts of marriage and all.