when I wander.

so I am again on this place, where I have no clear immediate goal. nothing to strive for. and I guess I know this place pretty well. this is the place which feels worse. this is the place where I move the needle without knowing the direction. this is the place where actions matters most. this is the place where magic happens.

it is amazing that a insane fight is happening inside me. a fight that require every second. but interestingly nature of fight complements everything rather than block anything else that I am doing.

so what I really supposed to do now. one thing I am sure about is to ingrained this habit of understanding, effort and mindfulness deeply. like morning ritual is ingrained. than only it make sense to even try anything else. so for this week I guess I am already occupied with it.