why afflictions are bad.

from past few days I am allowing to entertain certain afflictions with the latent attitude of it’s ok to entertain these afflictions once and a while, what bad it is doing after all. and the next thing I notice is the frequency start to increase. but really what’s wrong with it, after-all I am enjoying it. ya !

the problem is choosing affliction is like loosing your power to affliction. loosing your power to mind. and mind wins. and what does that means !

what kind of happiness I am getting out of it, or suffering I am avoiding by entertaining these affliction, only gratification I get is sort of a habitual gratification, which is like making this rope even stronger by wrapping another thread, see if I am keep doing it. it’s like I am not progressing on my spiritual path, I am just stuck in this trap where I am growing my self a bit and than allowing mind to demolish it.

the whole different reframe from (sandeep)[http://sandeepmaheshwari.com] was inner confusion is like boiling water and doing these things are like putting fuel into this water. it’s gonna keep it boiling, and it is really not smart to do if there is already momentum. the better approach would be to allow it to calm down and be a bit strict about it. once it calm down to significant level than make conscious choice whether you want to do it or not.

seriously what kind of character and life I can build. if I can’t let go of these afflictions.

experientially speaking refraining something is not the goal. and neither it is practical, so I would like to include a cheat quarter of day every week (thursday night). where I am allowing to release any on these build up energy

the point is very simple make your presence better by practicing on these afflictions and live a wonderful life. or allow mind to win and live a miserable life full of inner confusions and probably die like Ivan Ilyich.