Winning # competing on what!

Competition happens over an object. Having most beautiful partner, most wealth. It is going to be something I care about. Something I suppressed or desired. Looking good.

When I compete and lost I am gonna feel low self worth, current thoughts are about I should look for the job in namshi etc…

Comptetion can become the source of purpose, your puspose and action could come from just that. This is like playing the vary wrong game.

If I won the completion. I have already won it in so many categories, I have amazing girlfriend, I worked for 3.5lakh/month salary. I have travelled for 3 years. Done over 10 retreats, meditated for 4-5K hours, have freedom, readi 100s of book, people are using me as ideal. Probably better communicator than 90% people.

I compete based on something that I lack. And then I look at others and if they have it there is a self judgement.

In reality people are posting these photos so they could get some like. Why you post the photo of skydiving. They are looking for the likes and appreciation and you are competing with them.

But what if I won the comptetion, than there is ego, the puffed up chest.

This comptetion thing is funny because I have competed with sharat for girlfriend. Kewat is competing for the girlfriend.

There is also playful comptetion that I did with Prachi or lin sometime, ok lets bet for putting that in bin.