Winning # the underlying stone.

Protecting and proving my beliefs are right, making sure no one gets ahead, dismissing their argument and putting blame in their character, and then desire for checking what other people are doing.

The feeling of completion is hollowness in heart. Kind of anticipatory feeling something might go wrong. The heart area start to tighten up. And ofcourse after engaging it in for sometime I feel disoriented. Loose the sense of direction.

these sensations are triggered when I see Anurag maybe getting Job in France or getting married to french girlfriend. Or Sishin giving technical talks.

I didn’t even read what Akhil wrote in that email. He might also be trying to do proving his argument and position.