mindfulness.

may be it’s the oscillation of low time or may be I am more aware, but clearly I am experiencing irregular amount of noise in my mind. in general also I have not officially implemented mindfulness practice in my daily. and it is clearly running around and leaking life.but from last day or two I am experiencing abnormal activity.

mind is quite a thing, very conveniently it forget stuffs against it. so if I watch a video or read a book after a week, I am like ahh this is what it was about. ok I got this now. and if not reminded soon it starts to inject it’s own mean aspirations. a lot of time very well but deceivingly wrapped in way that seems like it’s beneficial for me.

the point is if I am feeling sick, I should take rest and heal that first, how would you enjoy a journey with sick physic. and what would you learn if you can not even see things as they are.

so for this weekend I would like to do a 2days retreat. just calm down yourself first. everything else can wait. and for weekdays I would say lets take a timeout on working with fears and any other spiritual practice and meditate and read books. from next week we can resume it.

with a agitated mind, I am really not clear about my real motivation behind the thing.

I might also like to introduce mindfulness practice from the next week.