2. The process and wise actions.

What ever information comes into my field of attention sometimes create the emotional reaction and that creates the desires and conflict and it becomes an ongoing process.

Everyone tries to condition it, trining to elicit a stronger reaction by bombarding info, limited offer, fearful headlines, using lust. and it influence the process and creates the desire and I follow them, getting nothing.

Futhermore seeing what others are doing again creates more of emotional reaction and process starts to create more of such desire to have the babies.

When there is conflict in the information, or something require thinking and effort that unease creates the easy way out eating, sex, sleeping, and if acted on it, it leads to judgement and then even more easy desire like watching movies and then desire for more information and this is a vicious loop.

The process work on default, the default is pleasent then process ulmitalely stops, if default is uncomfortable then process continues.

The process leads to watching movies to pass the time ( dad ). Living for others attentions ( Tare Zameen Par ). or Total dependence on other people ( Mom ). On the other hand it is possible to live rich, find deeper realities, travel the world. and be of some use in this world.

Make a firm desicion that I want to work on this process. This is going to be long term consistent project.

First stop the intake of garbage information. Youtube, news, unnecessary chit chat. Phone….

I do not want to make the decision based on what is chepest, in shoratge and brought by a lot of other people.

Every evening meditation to see what process are running and how come I can overcome them. Selectively master them, with the consistent and slow effort.

Use affirmation and intellect to influence the process. and give it the direction. Deeply read the scripture and patiently apply on your life.

Use awareness to see and let go the attachement to sweet posions like others approval.