Other angle.

spirituality is an interesting thing to explore and I have read a lot of literature and done significant practice and will continue, it has given me a solid understanding of life from one angle. as good as it looks, it’s not enough, life needs to be explore from other angles as well. or I would end with strange one sided denial towards life. I have very limited experience with life. and wisdom needs more data.

with an acute concentration, and retrospective mindset I would like to venture into the world, the outer world to observe without concepts. to try dark and white side of life. to see what is all out there experientially. to really try and see. build wisdom on your own experience and observance.

so what are some other angles. one clear angle is the extroverted way people live in the world. out of very much disgust, I never read any literature on this. out of narcissistic repulsion, I felt a need to not engage in any unauthentic presentation of self. just out of fear I didn’t engage in a lot of thing in life.